Last night, a couple of friends and myself got into a discussion about prioritizing fitness decisions against a daily “must do” list. Living a non-scheduled life can be pretty hectic and trying to fit in exercise can seem daunting when you only get two to four hours of sleep a night. But, it is important to me. Well, sort of.
Despite the DJ Tanner allegations, I’m actually hitting a fairly big “I don’t care” wall. Part of the reason – I know that there’s no way in hell am I going to win this thing. Well, unless I pick up an eating disorder from now til then.
But the other reason, I’m happy. . . and busy. I like how my clothes fit me now (actually, I’ve had to get rid of a lot of clothes or stop wearing some since I can’t fit in them anymore), and I really don’t want to be any smaller.
I already don’t have a butt, so shrinkage will put me in the Eva Longoria category, and I don’t have the money to afford butt pads.
So mentally, I’ve hit a very strange maintenance mode. I don’t work out that much more than usual, and I eat what I want. Yes, I went to two restaurants this week for Austin Restaurant Week. And, YES, I had dessert both times.
I even ate bread..carbs…
The competition is a great idea and motivator. Wouldn’t have reached my current weight without it, but I’m also not crazy enough to sacrifice things I enjoy just to win. I’m not even worried about the bikini shot anymore. Meh.
So, now the struggle is to find another motivator to keep me moving.
Any ideas?
Ashley and I were having the same conversation during our run at 5 a.m. this morning. It’s like we’ve gotten to the point where we can’t live our lives, just because we’re scared an extra piece of bread or cupcake is going to send us off the deep end.
Comment by Jenni — September 23, 2009 @ 12:55 pm
Up until I was given extra incentive I too was in a comfortable place. All of my clothes fit, with a few exceptions that were too big, and I was pretty happy with how I looked. I totally feel ya and am so excited for you.
You’re looking G-O-R-G-E-O-U-S and even more importantly you look radiantly healthy. Way to go!
Comment by lovelyladyash — September 23, 2009 @ 4:24 pm